Monday, April 23, 2007

Week Ten - Safety

Week Ten. Unbelievable! At this point in the process, I'm always amazed at how quickly time does fly.

When I think of the word safety, I wonder, is that even possible? For one, there's today's world and all the dangers that lurk. And then there's just life in general, accidents happen, life is fragile, where is the sense of safety? And then as a creative person, we dont want to simply be "safe." We want to risk, and stretch, and move beyond safety into the exhilirating unknown! Right?

This past week I've been struggling with the idea of a benevolent Universe. As much as I feed on synchronicities in my own life and the life of others, as much as I can feel one day that the Universe is winking at me, on other days or even other moments, I feel like it's all a bunch of crapola. I think I'm only fooling myself into believing such nonsense. And then the following day, I'll hear such a beautiful story of synchronicity that my heart opens for the millionth time to the possibility. So, I suppose that once again, this chapter is well-timed. For, I could use a sense of this kind of safety. Not necessarily a safety from harm or from things going "wrong", but a sense of safety in the fact that I am surrounded by a net of from family, friends, and yes, the Universe too. Throughout this chapter, Cameron shares stories of other artists experiencing their own version of this struggle. I feel slightly relieved in this. I feel so utterly grateful for all the good in my life right now Perhaps this is how I feel "safe", this waiting for the other shoe to drop, this too good to be true feeling. Perhaps what I desire, is to let that old belief go because it is no longer useful and open myself up to a new belief.

I do experience art as a mystery most of the time. I do feel, when I allow myself to get connected, led by my intuition in wild and unexpected ways. When I'm outside I constantly feel a sense of the sublime. I understand why Cameron suggests the walks, which in getting us outside, gives us the opportunity to connect with that feeling of being so small, that feeling of awe and wonderment. On Friday, I took a long walk and was thrilled to see my favorite trees, Magnolia trees, about to burst into flower. There was one on my street growing up and I was madly in love with it. Despite the timing for allergies, I am still so happy with the days in which the Magnolia trees bloom.

It's usually at this point in the process that I feel a sort of breaking point or a wall that I slam into. Heh, I just remembered that on my walk on Friday I nearly walked into a pole because I was walking and looking backwards at an old building that caught my eye. If you have hit that wall (or pole) in your own journey, don't give up. Even if you've had a "bad" week, brush it off and get back to it, write your pages, get out in the glorious sunshine, try those divining rods and be open to possibility. Me, I plan on opening myself up, as much as my heart can stand, letting the light in, and playing with the idea that as Rob Brezsny says, the whole world is conspiring to shower me with blessings.

How do you feel about synchronicity? What do you do when you doubt it all?

Some luscious linkage:

Article: Sharon Salzberg on Faith
Images: Stunning pictures of the Universe.
Poem: Wild Geese by Mary Oliver
Symbol: Lighthouses are known to be symbols of safety, comfort and hope.
Books: Comfortable with Uncertainty by Pema Chodron, Pronoia is the Antidote for Paranoia: How the Whole World is Conspiring to Shower You with Blessings by Rob Brezsny, The Red Book: A Deliciously Unorthodox Approach to Igniting Your Divine Spark by Sera Beak.

Lots of love and creative juiciness,
Leah, Creative Everyday


Intuititive Creativity said...

Beautiful post Leah!

Lots of love,


Jessie said...

this is some incredibly beautiful writing, chica. i can relate on many levels...especially that bit about the universe being a bit of a roller coaster ride. and i also like the notion of being "surrounded by a net of support." it makes me think of this finding water group and how thankful i am for the support that it provides.

much love to you, friend...and i hope you catch all those winks that the universe has to offer! :)

tammy vitale said...

oh - books - I always need books. Thanks for the linkage - and I managed to pick up Julia this week, and take a walk and artist date at the same time at the Spring Art Walk in Lancaster PA (with husband but I'm counting it anyways), and not do morning pages except once and that's okay too. Because what life is conspiring about me right now is that where I am, NOW, is just fine.

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful post! Synchronicity is one of those things that awakens my inner lacking-brat, honestly, because I NEVER feel like it happens to me, so I start to think "wah, what am I doing wrong?"

That being said, can I just say that this post was JUST what I needed today, synchronicity or not? :)

Marie said...

I always love reading your posts because you are great at connecting things with other things. Books are good too...I'm a book addict...which reminds me shall we continue this group with a new book?

I did love this chapter because I felt I explored some strategies on how I survived some really tough times. This allowed me to help a friend in need...It was also good for me to remember for future rocky roads...thanks for having this group!

Marie said...

By the way...I put a "I Am" poetry template on my blog as a way we could get to know each other...I think it would be fun if you guys want to try it when you have a crazy minute from your crazy schedules..

Kelly said...

Leah, I know just what you're talking about. Sometimes I also think it's all a bunch of crapola. I guess that's when I just look around me at all the miracles of life, the beauty of the mundane. I think about what quantum physics is teaching us about the nature of the is supporting the idea of synchronicity and an order beyond the apparent chaos. I make a list of gratitudes.

Tammigirl said...

Leah, I'm not a member of this group, but I want to comment on the beauty of your words.

The Universe absolutely is conspiring to your benefit and mine.

Anonymous said...

This is a wonderful blog. I only discovered it recently. Will you continue with something new when you are done with this book?